LouisZz: 2009

This morning , he brought me jogging ( which i hate ) . i just woke up at 6.30 a.m without saying a word . i didn't even speak as i thought it would make him angry because yesterday i hooked up on my computer . i was chatting with an overseas friend i have not met for 3 years now. He just shut off the modem and i became furious ... I just sat down there quitely and watched some movies .. later on , he chatted with my siblings who are in Singapore studying . i was right behind him reading the newspaper . He told them : " Your Brother , he is infected with computer ! He does not even read the [ NEWS PAPER ] !!! and wasting his good time . I said nothing about it , i just sat there and thank about what he said ....

Back to after the jogging , i finished my run and headed back to the car , i sat in there listening to the radio thinking " should I talk to him and make him less angry and will it make him more angry ?" after his run , i put the water on the driving seat for him . he just changed his shirt and came in to start the car . There were 2 bottles of water . I finnished the small bottle while i gave him the bigger bottle . I was sitting there quietly , he threw the bottle at me like i was a chair or something and started shouting at me saying " DRINK !! DRINK !! " i drank about 1/4 of water in the 1.5 litre bottle . He kept on Shoting " DRINK!! DRINK!!" . i had no choice but to drink it . at that time , i was thinking to myself , " am I any different from a Prisoner ? "... so I just kept quiet again ..

At home , i just went upstairs and took a shower and came down to have breakfast with him . I made a cup of MILO , and sit at the table and slowly drank it . he was eating some fruits and drinking his cup of ( thing ) . after awhile , he exoploded and started to shout at me , " Every morning , i make breakfast for you and put it on the table for you , have you ever tell me THANK YOU!! ???? " . For a moment there i froze and couldn't really say much as it was true . i never really told him Thank you . Just as i was going to say " sorry dad " . He turned to another thing and started again : " YOUR elder BROTHER !, every morning ! he wakes up and tells me GOOD MORNING ! do you ?! " . This i knew i did . Normally he leaves before i wake up , so I barely have the chance . But if i woke up early , i did .

After all these years , i've tolerated and did nothing about it . But everyone has a LIMIT . EVEN I DO! i am 15 years OLD ! i cant even have my own hair style i like , cant even leave my finger nails abit longer than usual after PMR , What difference am I from a 5 Year old Kid who goes to Kindergarten ?! I hope that only I have this father . So no one else has to suffer like this . He is a good one , He can take care of the family , can cook briliantly for the family . But his emotions are TERRIBLE ! i'm beggining to think im like the kid in " I NOT STUPID 2 " . but obviously my mother is not like that . My mother is way more kind and never acts emotionally . Guess i am lucky to have her ...

Now my father is at a stage i can't take anymore , sometimes i feel like studying better and migrating to Singapore . Even taking the 2 years of National Service i can take it ... Now i really can't take it already thats why i'm putting it on my blog ...